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March 10, 2012
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I dim the lights,
And turn on the TV,
Even though I'm not watching I leave it on,
It's the news, seems like another fight,
Why's the world so violent?

I take my time going to sleep,
I close my eyes,
I see someone's face,
I think I recognize her,
But I can't remember her name,
Who is she?
With eyes like that it must be a sign,
But I brush it aside,
Even in my fantasies,
I'm afraid.
I'm afraid of showing my feelings inside.

What's wrong with me?
My life isn't that bad…
What's wrong with me?
I won't accept that I'm sad…
I'm not, am I?
Am I? I don't know…

The next day, I go to school,
I hear laughter,
Is someone talking to me?
I hear voices after all,
Though I can't make out any of them…
Is there something wrong with my hearing?
There must be.
Even thought people are laughing,
I wonder how many are faking it,
How many are wearing masks behind their depression?

I look around and find my group of friends,
Is that the right word to describe them?
Sometimes I wonder…
This time, I know people are talking to me,
But I don't hear them,
I'm too busy thinking in my own world,
I feel like I'm drowning,
I feel alone in a crowd…
Not sure what to do, so I fake a smile,
And fabricate a useless conversation,
Though other times, I'll just keep quiet.

I take a deep breath and go to class,
What's the point of this anyway?
I could hardly hear anyway,
An imaginary buzz goes through my ear,
I clasp my hands over them,
Even though I know it won't help,
The buzzing is then replaced with her voice,
Please go away,
You bring back terrible memories,
Please go away,
I'm having trouble living without you as it is.

As I transfer classes someone says "Hi" to me,
Shut up, I hate you. Go away,
These things run inside my head,
I have a temptation to say them,
Please just die.
Am I a bad person because I wish for these things?
She's only being polite,
Should I even care?
To cover up my frustration, I say Hi back,
Then I ignore her and move on,

I start to write,
And my thoughts go wild,
I make no sense,
But expression doesn't need a sense of direction right?
You sure didn't make it seem that way.
Well, I guess I'm alone.
There's nothing else I can do.
What's with all these poems about depression and hatred I've been writing lately? Good going Dylan...

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KitsuneShadow65 Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2014
This poem really describes me, because most of the time I feel alone don't matter how many people I know are around.
xxdraxx Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2014  Student Artist
Such is life.
WolfShadow567 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
No, I love these. God that came out wrong. But like, I relate to all of them, and the words are so close to my own thoughts and observations I swear its like they ARE my thoughts. Of course, I'm female though XD

xxdraxx Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Artist
:) I have no idea what you're trying to say...but it sounds like a compliment. :p Thanks you.
WolfShadow567 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It is a compliment! You're welcome! :3
AlycynVeeRide Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I do so have a question? How can I post literature on hurr because I have a free-verse poem I want to send my friend who lives in Jersey?
xxdraxx Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Student Artist
On deviantart? Of course O.o There's a literature section dedicated to solely that.
AlycynVeeRide Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
OK Thanks bunches! Here's a llama for your help!
xxdraxx Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Student Artist
AlycynVeeRide Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
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