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So here I am
     Trying to write a poem.
I’m trying
          To find a purpose to it.
     A profound message to speak upon.
In essence, I want to play Aristocrat
     In this silly drama I call Deviant Art.
I’m trying too hard, I realize,
     To make it work out.
          I’m trying too hard, to pop off.
At some point,
     It becomes less about the Art
          But rather the attention you get from it.

There’s a game, I use to play when I was younger.
I would gather in a circle with my kindergarten class
     And we’d all scream, “Look at me! Look at me!”
          Hoping desperately that you would get the spotlight.
I guess I’m growing younger.

I remember in 9th grade...I would show off my intelligence
     Only because I knew I got people’s attention from it.
          I would bring a Rubik’s Cube every day to class & solve it endlessly
     Rather than focus of academics.
          This one time my teacher even invited me to solve it in front of the class
               For no other reason than for pure enjoyment.
The adrenaline rush I got as the class clapped for me was like no other.
     At that moment I knew deep inside what I wanted to do for the rest of my life.

But I had become an attention whore.
     I got high off it.
          It’s a drug.
     You become obsessed.
And it turns you into a different person.

I mean…I guess I should be proud that I didn’t end up like Miley
          And resort to whipping out my ass out in public.

I have work to do to remember that whatever work I’m doing
     There’s millions trying to do the exact same thing as I am.
          There are 7 billion 46 million people on this planet and trillions of stars in the universe.
I would have to have a tourniquet tied to my elbow to believe this universe gives a shit about some
     Lonely Asian kid from some place old men in the 1500s named Canada.

That was my first thought,
     As nihilistic as it was.

My second (and saner) thought was that…
     Yeah. I struggle with loneliness.
I’m at a constant struggle with myself; telling myself there are people who care about me.
     I have the right to want attention…but so does everyone else.
The building blocks of our existence are the existence of others.
     We’re houses…made out of houses.

So I have to remember…
     There are others trying to communicate here.
Just a revelation I had...

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Be my friend? I'm a lonely Asian kid.

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:iconemscems43:
This is really cool. Seriously, ive always done poems and stuff but my poems are all metaphors wrapped in metaphors until only i can understand them (which is stupid, i know) So serious props for being so staightforward and saying what you feel. Thanks for writing this, it really made me think.
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xxdraxx Jan 19, 2014  Student Artist
I do that...sometimes.

But I write so that people see me for who I see myself as. I think covering up everything in metaphors kind of loses that and personally I find that kind of stuff a little pretentious. 

Honesty and messages are the most important thing to me.
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Thank you. Im going to try and be more straightforward with my writing instead of covering everything up all the time. You're absolutely right. Why write at all if there is no clear message?
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xxdraxx Jan 19, 2014  Student Artist
I started writing for myself...so..kekeke ^.^"
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:iconemscems43:
I think everyone does ... some.mote than others ... *bows head in shame*
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xxdraxx Jan 19, 2014  Student Artist
I just say exactly what's in my head...I don't organize my thoughts...at all.
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TheAwesomeDemonMe Jan 4, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This.Is.Amazing. Really amazing ^^ 
Somehow this made me think about myself..There's so much stuff and things going on in DA that when I joined less than a year ago I felt so...confused and kinda...attention whore 'cuz I felt like no-one saw my art... -.-'' many times artists try too much and aren't happy with anything they have done but after all we are only humans...

So what I was saying is that I know the feeling that ya have in this, we should not think ourselfs too much...(feeling that my comment doesn't make any sense...kinda ^^'')
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xxdraxx Jan 4, 2014  Student Artist
It...made enough sense to comprehend it.
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adalheidis Jan 2, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
"I guess I’m growing younger" brilliant :)

don't worry, this feeling - it goes away with time. Hang in there. There will be some rough patches, but don't give up. I promise you, it DOES get better. What really helped me survive was realising, that the less time I spent thinking about myself, the happier I felt.
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xxdraxx Jan 3, 2014  Student Artist
Thanks ^.^
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